Happy Labor Day!
This day started off so great. So why is it ending so bad? My husband and I are being civil. We're getting along and trying to act normal for Kyson's sake. We took him to the zoo today (I'll post about that tomorrow) and had a pic-nick. We've come to terms about our divorce and have been pretty good about splitting up our belongings 50/50. Except our vacuum, we did fight about that. Who fights over a vacuum??! Well when your vacuum is a $500 vacuum, its worth fighting over.. Not the point, I am completely torn over our custody agreement! Until Kyson starts pre-school when he's 4 (he'll be 4 in January 2013) we'll be splitting him 50/50. But because Dave is in the Air Force he's stuck in Texas whereas I'll be moving back home to Utah. So that means a lot of traveling for us! So we figured to be easy on our vehicles, bank accounts and us individually we would do every four months. And because Dave was deployed last year over the holidays I was generous enough to offer him to take Kyson for the first four months so they could spend it together this year. As hard as it is on me to be without Kyson, I'm trying to be fair! It's killing me inside!! My friends are dropping like flies because they think I'm abandoning Kyson.. What the?! How in the world am I abandoning him? I thought I was doing the right thing by allowing him that time with his Father. I'll be getting just as much time with him! Apparently civil divorces aren't allowed in Texas, because it turns the Mother into a monster.. Great, now I'm a monster! All this because I was trying to be generous? Doesn't seem right to me! I need some serious cheering up, advice, encouragement, and chocolate! Lots of chocolate! Am I doing the right thing? Or should I be robbing Dave of everything he's got?! We're both willing to put our feelings aside and do whats best for Kyson. I feel so discouraged, so run down, so hurt by everything! I'm so sad, I need a vacation!