Thursday, June 23, 2011

my story, untold.

Friday February 27, 1987 my mom gave birth to her last child, yours truly! Yep I'm the youngest of five and I was spoiled rotten! I lived a good life in a happy home. Both my parents had good jobs, I lived in a safe neighborhood and I had a lot of friends. Growing up I was the typical drama filled teenager. I was boy crazy and all I wanted to do was talk on the phone. I spent most of my time either in my room or at my friends house in their room. When I turned 16 I got my first job at an Ice Cream Parlor. I got my first car for Christmas that year and had the world at my fingertips. A week after I turned 16 I met a boy named Shawn. He lived 3 hours away. I was a sophomore, he was a senior. We talked all day every day. E-mails, MSN messenger, phone calls, even letters. He would visit me every couple of months for a few days and we were always inseparable when he did. There was one problem, my parents didn't approve! They wanted me to date around, date boys that lived in the same city as me. But I didn't want to date anyone else. I wanted to date Shawn!! We had been dating long distance for a year and a half and I remember being at work at the ice cream shop. It was after hours and my co-worker and I were doing our closing duties. I was on the phone with Shawn while cleaning up when he told me that he loved me for the first time. I had never been in love before, not even thoughts of being in love. It took me completely by surprise! I didn't even say it back! I didn't know what love felt like and wasn't sure if I was in love. But I finally said it back to him and it felt right. I did love him!  We continued dating for another year. I was still in high school and he had graduated so he was able to visit more often. I was two months away from turning 18 and it was New Years Eve. We were up on the airport hill when he proposed to me. It was picture perfect. Fireworks in the background, city lights below us and the man I loved was proposing. I said yes. I was a high school student with a fiance'. No one thought it would work, they all said we were too young. But what do teenagers do when challenged? Rebel! I graduated from high school and moved up to be closer to Shawn. I spent another year dating him and was the happiest girl in the world! I had a good job and I was going to school. I had friends and I was planning a wedding! I had it all! Until that night came. Shawn's entire family was gathered in the living room at his Dad's house playing the playstation. A fight broke out between Shawn and his brother, things were said and I was left in tears! I moved back home that weekend. I was mortified, embarrassed and had a broken heart! All I could do to pass the time was to work. I worked and worked and worked!! I was working one morning and ran into an old high school friend. We got to talking and exchanged phone numbers. We hung out that night. We played miniature golf. I won! We hung out every night after that.. But I still had my fiance' 3 hours away. We were still together but our relationship was on the rocks. I remember every detail about this day, the chair I was sitting in with my knees up watching tv. My dad noticed something was wrong so I told him everything. He gave me his fatherly advice and I knew exactly what I had to do.. I picked up my pink cell phone and dialed his number. I broke up with Shawn for a guy I had been seeing for 3 weeks! Just like that. I felt like such a biotch but I couldn't help my feelings for Jeff. Jeff and I moved pretty quickly. Too quickly! This is the part of my life that I'm not proud of.. I grew up in a very religious household. I knew the religion so well and I fell away from it. I put Jeff before anything and everyone! Even myself. We started experimenting with each other and going "too far". I started partying with him and his friends. Did things I shouldn't have! Things I would of done differently if I could. But I definitely learned from it! We dated for only six months when he proposed. We fell hard and fast for each other!! We loved each other but now I know it was lust. We couldn't keep our hands off each other. Ever! After being together for a year and a half I got a job at Texas Roadhouse. I found out via text message that Jeff had been cheating on me since week 3 of our relationship and I was crushed! And I worked with the girl.. Awkward!! That's when the fighting began. We had never ever had a fight until now. For the next six months we broke up and got back together every other week. So annoying and so pathetic but I couldn't let him go! I couldn't stand the thought of him being with anyone else. I've never been a jealous girl but I was so jealous at that time! Even knowing he was cheating on me I couldn't walk away. I tried my hardest every day to keep him! October 2007 I started talking to an old middle school crush, Dave. He was currently serving in the United States Air Force and was deployed to Saudi Arabia. We talked as much as we could but it wasn't very often. He was there for me, he listened and comforted me. Jeff had brought me to an all time low in my life and Dave was keeping me from falling apart completely! Dave got back to the states that January and I was still with Jeff on and off. Dave and I texted and talked every day and oh how the tables turned!! Jeff found out and became incredibly jealous, clingy, and needy and all I wanted to do was talk to Dave. I purposely ignored Jeff's calls, texts and visits. At this point I worked at a spa and was always busy with clients so I had no time to sit and talk relationship stuff. My job was my life! I finally broke it off with Jeff but we were still hanging out. He was trying to win me back but I just couldn't take anymore heartache. It was my birthday and I was going to dinner with my very close friend Cory. Cory had been there through it all. He hated Jeff from day one, didn't mind Shawn and wanted to meet Dave. Talk about confusing! Dave had sent me an enormous bouquet of gorgeous roses with the cutest note attached to them. That's what did it for me. I realized just how much Dave really cared. Dave knew Jeff from high school so he knew just how big of a jerk he really was and along with Cory he hated him. I decided to make the 17 hour drive to Texas to visit Dave. I drove and drove and drove and that's what it took to finally get over Jeff. Dave and I had an instant attraction. We got along so well and we couldn't stop laughing when we were with each other. He made me happy! My parents adored him and I loved his family. Things were finally just where I wanted them, I thought.. Being raised Mormon, I always knew right from wrong. Dave and I had went too far one night and our lives were about to change forever! It was time for me to go back home to Utah and get back to my normal life. I drove all the way to Albuquerque and got a hotel for the night. I got on the phone with Dave and decided we didn't want to be apart from each other. Stayed the night and got back on the road. Texas bound! My parents actually took it really well. They wanted me to be with Dave. A couple weeks had gone by and I started getting sick to my stomach. No throwing up but just an upset stomach. It lasted four days then went away. No big deal just a stomach bug. Dave came home from work one day with a bag in his hand.. Inside was a little pink box. A pregnancy test?! Oh yes he forced me to take it. And after a few hours of arguing about it I finally just took the stupid thing!! Positive! All I remember was sitting on the kitchen floor crying my little green eyes out. Dave sat next to me with his arms around me. We were terrified! Called my parents and told them the news, the knew it was bound to happen. His parents were ecstatic! I took two more home pregnancy tests and still didn't believe it. Got a test done at a doctors office and still didn't believe! Went on base and got blood work done. When that one came back positive I finally accepted it. I was going to be a mom and I was only 21! I wasn't even married yet! My parents, Dave's parents and Dave all wanted us to get married. The only problem? I had no interest in getting married!! None whatsoever! I liked Dave, a lot, but I wasn't in love with him. It took a few months to talk me into it (doesn't that sound just awful?) but we finally got engaged. July 11, 2008 we got married. At first I was scared. I questioned everything and didn't know what to think. But as time went on and we lived in our tiny one bedroom apartment we grew a bond. We were always broke with close to no furniture. We lived off of mac n cheese and ramen but we managed. Dave and I never really fought. We rarely disagree on things and even though I had the hardest time committing to Dave, once I did I never looked back! Kyson was born and our love for each other has grown stronger each and every day. Dave and I had such a rough start but I believe that it made us stronger as a couple and as individuals. I asked my mom one day if she thought everything happens for a reason. I didn't get her answer until the next day. She told me that its possible that we got pregnant because we really needed each other. We were both immature and getting pregnant was what made us grow up and settle down. It brought us back into the church and our relationship with everyone around us instantly got better. We both went through a pretty intense repentance process but overcame it and went through the temple together. We were sealed for Time and All Eternity to each other and to baby Kyson. Our testimonies went through the roof and our home is filled with the spirit! I love Dave with all of my heart and I am so glad we're going through this life together. We're not perfect but making mistakes together is what its all about. Our 3rd wedding anniversary is just around the corner and we're so excited. We've never been happier and I am truly blessed to have him as my husband. He is so supportive of me, my wants, and my dreams. He always puts me first and will put aside anything to make me happy. He makes me happy and I still melt when he tells me I'm beautiful. I still get giddy on our dates and we still flirt like we did on our first date. Our love is real and everlasting and I'm so glad we'll be together for eternity!! I love you Dave, forever and ever babe!! :)

That's my story in a nutshell (sort of) Congratulations if you read it from start to finish, you should probably receive a prize of some kind! It was really hard for me to open up like that and relive those memories but when I really think about it, its not so hard after all! I'm 100% over my ex's and after being with my husband for this long I can talk about them without stirring up old feelings! I left out a ton of personal details but if you would like to know more please don't hesitate to ask. I've grown into a strong woman!! :)

I love you all!

Happy Anniversary

July 11, 2008

This was love at first sight, love everlasting: a feeling unknown, unhoped for, unexpected–in so far as it could be a matter of conscious awareness; it took entire possession of him, and he understood, with joyous amazement, that this was for life.
Thomas Mann

True love is eternal, infinite, and always like itself. It is equal and pure, without violent demonstrations: it is seen with white hairs and is always young in the heart.
Honore de Balzac

Two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one.
John Keats

I wish to belong to you, I’ll be the one you’re looking for and we’ll be the one heaven’s searching for!
For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart.
It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.
Judy Garland

 3 years ago today I walked into the temple so nervous and so excited! I married my best friend! We walked out hand in hand as husband and wife!! 3 years ago today our lives changed forever!

True love stories never have endings.
Richard Bach

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Fathers Day

The night before Fathers Day I was walking through Wal Mart trying to plan the next day. It was for Fathers Day and I really wanted to make it a good one for Dave. Last year my parents were visiting us on Fathers Day so it wasn't all about him. So I had some making up to do! Got a few things and went home. I was planning on making him a big breakfast in bed. When I woke up Sunday morning I was woken by a big breakfast! Wait what?! This is a little backwards, I'm supposed to be making him breakfast in bed!! Fail!! The morning was off to a great start :) So I dragged my lazy self out of bed and ate my delicious breakfast. I wrote out a few rules for Dave for the day:
Rule #1-Whatever you say goes
Rule #2- Relax, I'll wait on you hand and foot
Rule #3- I can't remember the third rule.. :)

His first demand? A burrito and a pepsi! What my man wants, my man gets!! HA :) We had fun with it and it made for some good laughs. We played Mario Kart on the Wii and it was so fun!  Except the level with all the cows kills me every time! Stupid fence :)

Happy Fathers Day to the man of the hour, or day!!
Kyson made him a card
His gifts.
Tools, Iron Man 2, a tie, and a tool box that's not in the picture.
He was spoiled rotten! And it was only noon!!
I made a turkey dinner for him that hit the spot for us both. It was sooo good if I say so myself ;) And then I made the some homemade cheesecake! To die for!!
Brownie Caramel Cheesecake
(I used the wrong pan so it didn't turn out perfect)
Here's the recipe:
1 8 oz package brownie mix
1 egg
1 tablespoon water
1 14 oz package vanilla caramels
1 5oz can evaporated milk
3 8 oz packages cream cheese, softened
1 14 oz can sweetened condensed milk
3 eggs
1/3 cup chopped chocolate covered toffee bar (skor bar)

Preheat oven to 350. Grease a 10 inch springform pan (like I said, I used the wrong pan). For crust, in a medium bowl stir together brownie mix, the 1 egg, and the water (its hard to mix). Spread into the bottom of the prepared springform pan. Bake in preheated oven for 15 minutes.

Meanwhile, in a medium saucepan, combine caramels and evaporated milk;cook and stir over medium-low heat until caramels are melted and smooth. Remove from heat. Remove 1/2 cup of melted mixture, cover and refrigerate until serving time.

For filling, in a large mixing bowl beat cream cheese, sweetened condensed milk, and 3 eggs with an electric mixer until combined.

Pour filling over brownie layer. Drizzle remaining melted caramel mixture over filling. Swirl gently with a knife. Bake in preheated oven about 45 minutes.

Cool in pan on a wire rack for 15 minutes. Loosen the egde from the side of pan; cool for 30 more minutes. Remove side of pan; cool cheesecake completely. Cover; chill for at least 4 hours or up to 24 hours before serving. (Cake may crack where caramel mixture is swirled in.)

Before serving, heat reserved caramel mixture; drizzle over cheesecake. Sprinkle with chopped toffee bar.

Its not as hard as it looks. I swear! If you're like me and don't own a springform pan, a normal cake pan worked fine too.
Bon Appetit :)

We spent the rest of the night watching movies, playing games, flirting and loving on each other.

Happy Father's Day to my awesome Dad, I love him very much and am blessed to have him as my dad! :)
There's nothing stronger then a daddy/daughter relationship!!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

i work for a king

I found this quote on this blog. I loved it and knew you would too!

 "I work for a King. He has put me in charge of his home. When He comes to see how I have managed His possessions and His children, I do not want to be found wanting. I want to do my best. Everything I have is on loan from Him. I have room and board and a job to do, but it is all for Him. Therefore I want to dress my best and do my best in all my work. I also want to be creative, for this is a sincere attempt to glorify Him and His beautiful creation. How I manage my home is a form of worship to Him."
-Lydia Sherman
This picture really has no relevance but I found it and I love it :)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Stay Beautiful

 I can't sleep! I've been listening to iTunes and a song came on that made me smile, so I thought I'd share. It describes Dave to a T! He's such a great husband.  (My comments are in red)

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous (they really do, they tell me all the time)
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better (I really couldn't)
He opens up my door and I get into his car (just about every single time)
And he says you look beautiful tonight (I love hearing those words!)
And I feel perfectly fine

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain (screaming and fighting are healthy, to a point but so is kissing in the rain)
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much (I've never been so in love)
And that's the way I loved you

He respects my space (which is a must with me)
And never makes me wait (he's always waiting on me)
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother (she adores him)
Talks business with my father (they talk about everything)
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable (maybe a little too comfortable)

And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

Dave wasn't my first love but he's by far my strongest and deepest love! We fight hard just like any normal couple but we love harder, we stress but play harder, we cry but laugh til we cry! We're still figuring out this whole marriage thing but we're having fun doing it. Our 3 year anniversary is only a couple weeks away and we're playing hard for it :)

You're beautiful
Every little piece love, don't you know
You're really gonna be someone, ask anyone
When you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Oh but if it don't, stay beautiful

Saturday, June 11, 2011

The simple things

Today was probably one of the funnest days of Kyson's life! We went to a birthday party at The Jump Around and I don't think I've ever seen Kyson so happy!! I love seeing him like that! He loves the simplest things, things that most adults don't even think about. One of his most favorite things are bubbles. He doesn't care about what clothes he's wearing or how many friends he has and I admire that. I know its because he's only two and most two year old's don't have any friends but that's not the point. He sets such a good example to Dave and I, he just wants to have fun and play with his cars and not worry about anything else. People tell me all the time how well behaved he is! We must be doing something right :)
The coolest bouncy house I've ever seen!!

It took Kyson about 10 minutes to get enough courage to go down the slide. The poor kid behind him sat there and waited the entire time!!! ha poor guy..

How cute are his little flip flops?!

He's growing up so fast!! It makes me sad but I'm excited to see what the future holds for him :)

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

San Antonio day 3

San Antonio is home to Lackland AFB and its where Dave went to basic training. It was so fun seeing where he got kicked into shape and screamed at every day for six weeks :) Its a huge base compared to our itty bitty Dyess!! We stayed a night on base and stayed in the Abilene suite! Pure coincidence!!

We took Kyson to the bomb run so he could run around and kill some energy.. And everyone knows he's obsessed with air planes so it was a double whammy! It was family day on base so there were a ton of nervous little airman fresh out of basic training walking marching around with their families. Quite hilarious!!

If you look really hard you can see Dave and Kyson under the plane..

By this time we were starving so we went over to the most delicious place on planet earth.. 
The Cheesecake Factory!

All three of us devoured our food in record time I'm sure! And even though we were ridiculously full we still had to eat some cheesecake!

Ultimate Red Velvet Cake Cheesecake
Oh yes I ate that and it made my belly so happy :)

I think at this time I needed a doctor because we were at a ginormous mall and Dave wanted me to go shopping.. I said "no thanks, I'm not in the mood!" WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT???!! How am I not in the mood for shopping? I'm always in the mood for shopping! And the whole way back to the truck he was trying to talk me into going shopping.. I must have been that full to not want to shop! So instead we went to the Natural Bridge Caverns.

S o  c o o l !

Its 180 feet below ground and its only a half mile long! It was on a lady's land and she had no idea it was there until some college students asked to use her land for an assignment and came across it. Now its Texas's most sought after cavern!

We needed to get on the road home before it got too late. So we left but we weren't finished! About an hour outside of San Antonio is a small town called Fredericksburg. Its a little German town and its such a cool place. We stopped there to look through the shops and actually do some shopping!

Main Street

We came across a store called Sassy Lassy. We spent the most time there and had a blast playing with all of their stuff! We felt like kids in a candy store!

hahaha I don't drink beer or any alcohol, but Germany is known for its beer. Hence the glasses!

Don't ask :)

This little sign was only $2.00!! How great is that?

Alright now we're finished with our vacation! We still had 3 long hours of driving left to do and Kyson was not a happy boy.. How was everyone's weekend? Mine was perfect!! I recommend San Antonio as a vacation destination :)

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

San Antonio day 2

Ah Saturday! Day 2 of our adventure! We woke up to a perfect day with perfect weather, we even got to sleep in! That doesn't happen very often when you share a room with a toddler! We were craving Burger King (who craves Burger King?) and you'd think being in a humongous city like San Antonio it would be easy to find a Burger King. Nope! We actually never found one.. So we had Wendy's instead on our way to this:
San Antonio Temple
Its a small temple but so gorgeous! It made me feel at home (probably cause we weren't the only Mormon's on the block) :) It was so good to feel the Spirit so strongly!!

Isn't he sexy?! :)
Once we did our Temple Clothing shopping we were off to Sea World!! We got in for free thanks to the Here's to the Hero's program! Military personnel and their families get in for free.. I love my airman and I'm so proud of him, he is my hero! :)
Those are flamingos in the back
The Azul show was our favorite! So neat seeing the divers do their thing from that far up!! And with dolphins and Beluga Whales!! Ahh so cool!!
Must. Stay. Hydrated.

Where was Kyson when we were taking this?!

We headed over to watch the whales do what they do best! 
Fact: There are about 400 killer whales that have been born into the three Sea Worlds and the youngest one was right here in San Antonio! He was still in training so he wasn't doing any tricks, but he was swimming around aww'ing the crowd! And did you know that dolphins are small whales? I had no idea!!
Ta da!!!

We watched a bunch of shows, duh its Sea World.. Some brand new wave runners are on my radar because of this show..
Those are dancers dancing on water while being pulled by a boat!! It was nuts!

Look at that water!! We need to go to the beach!

We had the best time at Sea World!! Next time we're going in our swimming suits so we can swim! I'll keep that in mind. We got some cute souvenirs, Kyson loves his stuffed whale!

Day 3 is coming up soon :)

Monday, June 6, 2011

San Antonio day 1

Now that was a fun weekend!! The fam and I made our way down to San Antonio for the weekend. It started off rough though. Thursday night Kyson was dancing and lost his balance and dove into a kitchen chair. He had a mouth full of blood!! So sad! My motherly instincts kicked in and I was shoving tissue paper in his mouth. An ER visit was soon followed! We were the only people in the Emergency Room so it was a quick visit. In and out in less than an hour! But figuers all they did was put Kyson on an antibiotic.. Friday morning we made a trip to a kids dentist who we've never met before! He had to readjust Kyson's little tooth. Kyson fell so hard he knocked his tooth out of place! Got an x-ray and sent on our merry little way. FINALLY!! San Antonio here we come!
4 hours later we made it to our destination!
Our hotel was real nice. The first thing we did? Ate unhealthy food!! :)

We ate at a little sports bar in our hotel and these nachos are as good as they look!! We were way too sick of driving to go anywhere else!!

 We had to let our unhealthy food digest for a minute before going swimming :)
We went swimming in their awesome pool. Pictures don't do it justice! Plus I didn't take many pictures :)

 We always love swimming! Especially in an unfamiliar pool. Kyson didn't want to get out and neither did we but it was getting to cold so we went back to our room and knocked out! We had been on vacation for only a few hours and we fell asleep at 9:00!! We know how to party haha.. We had a big day in the morning and I'll blog about day 2 soon :)